indifference.

after all these years, the experiences allowed me to see through quite a number of people from different walks of life and i have seen through them, thoroughly.

my character acts as a catalyst and the vast differences, in the context of perceiving people, between me and the rest, made the former a little harder to be understood, thus having an increasingly bigger gap to be breached across.the temporaily loss of identity now and then will be the effect of all these. it must be.

im sure many people portray different characters to different people in certain situations. what a pity it is, when people misunderstands you for what you truly are, based on their interactions with you at THAT point of time which you portrayed yourself to be. and then, your entire life, being judged, will be just a chop that is stamped harshly onto your face, without another chance of erasing the chop away. however superficial it is, this is an inevitable occurrence to all of us. so like i said, time will tell everything.

how about having old friends erasing the judgements on me and knowing me again and again?

some people are just not meant to be long lasting friends afterall.

if you feel that the short-lived happiness of friendship can overpower the possible 'harm' and hurt that can be inflicted to you by them, then by all means go ahead.

maybe i should start catergorising my friends into similar groups and use a single method to deal with the same group of friends.